Today I had a flash of inspiration. I don’t have any addictions other than a vape. My fight in life has been aimed toward freedom. I realised when after doing my mission from the day, I were to stop vaping I would be truly free. I managed to lose my vape today, so I replaced…
Category: Recovery Journey
Honest reflections on healing, sobriety, and the everyday work of rebuilding my life. These posts explore the challenges, breakthroughs, and quiet victories that shape my recovery.
Healthy
Healthy. That’s the word that keeps echoing for me today. My latest blood tests came back clean — no diabetes, no red flags, nothing to monitor. Just a simple confirmation that my body is stable and well. I also received my WINZ Disability Allowance form back from my doctor, stamped and signed. Under “Substance Use…
Mental Illness and Creativity as Part of Recovery
Over the years I’ve worked with different therapists, and many of them used drawing to help me express feelings I couldn’t easily explain. It wasn’t about making art — it was about finding a way to show what was happening inside me. One of the most helpful times was at Piha, where I had around…
Morning and Sleepiness
At 4am I was awake again, the way I am every day now. My body feels tired long before the sun comes up, and with my medication not quite right, even small problems feel sharper. When I couldn’t find my password book, I checked my handbag twice, knowing it should have been there. That early‑morning…
Selling What I Can, Staying Steady
Today I spent some time listing things on TradeMe — books, natural pigments, a flute, and a lot of Sistaco products. It’s not a big clear‑out or a dramatic life shift. It’s simply something I need to do. The garage here is full, and if I don’t start moving things along, I’ll get in trouble….